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has it change?

2009-08-25T20:11:00.000-07:00

haloo earthlings.. sorry for not being able to update my blog for the past few days..
wasn't realie in any mood to do anything right now.. just those confusion that keep lingering in my mind.. had a misunderstanding with love againn.. and yeahh.. this time its..
forget it,ii don't wish to elaborate more on it..let it just be known to me,him & also the almighty,Allah..
anyway ii have this thinking of buying a notebook..
but im using it as my diary... sound childish ryte?.. gawshh.. but ii relie need to let it out.. but at the same time ii don't wish to tell nibody bout it.. nvm.. ii guess for now..
let it just being hidden deep inside..and let those tears keep it accompany..
haish..i've ben slackingg way too much..to Mr Wan,Ms Sri & Uncle Ee... ii'm sorri.. ii promise i'll catch up on it soon.. ii know i've disappointed you guys for the atittude that i'm showing right now.. it will be over..once my mind is at ease.. don't get me wrong,it's not because of him im in this state.. but its just that i've many things in my mind.. families,friends etc.
ii promise...ii'll change..

baby, everytime we had a misunderstanding.. ii don't know why but ii tend to have this feling of insecure.. not because im having doubt on you..or in this relationship.. but im having doubts on myself.. ii shall end it here for now first.. not in the mood..tkinkaire readers!

2009-06-25T18:15:00.000-07:00

heyyhooo felloww peeps..
ferr this postt..ii made itt onliie fer lovee..
will updaatee the restt laterrhh teyy afterr ma werkk..
to bbyMariamm..macehh dearr..if euu read tis..i've receivedd eur msgg taww..
uu too hapiee lastlongg nan fatherhh kaee darl:))
it will sound a bit mushyy & stuff..if euu guys dunn wishh to read..ii understand:))

Bbbiee..
hapiie 3rd monthsaryy sygg..
time does fly so fast..and its our 3rd month tdaee..
juz wanna lett euu noee tat haviin euu byy ma sidee is somethinkk tat ii tweasure mostt..
thoughh we had our ups and downs togetha..
im juzt glad tat we've gne thru tat without breakinn apart..
euu weree therr weenn ii nided dumone the most..
wen im down tinkiin bout ma persnal pwoblem..
uu neva fails to mke mii laughh despite eurself havin pwoblem too..
andd mostlyy uu've shwered mii wif uur care,ur love& concernn..
ii lovee euu..and notinkk can replace tatt:))

pssbbiee,ii taq tawuu cmmne nmerr tuu bleyy timbl pat msg tuu..
jgnn fkir bkn2 taww..bluekk:P.. mwahh~!!

2009-06-24T18:39:00.000-07:00

those sadness are kept behind those smile & laughter that i've shown..

those mistakes tat i've made..in the past

make it hard fer them to forget..

how ii wish this ting gonna end.

caause i've been draggin maself..

dragginn to go home..

ii wonder how long tis ting gnna last..

apart from that..

i've been tinkingg about ma past..

ma past mistakes..and manyy moree..

those frens tat i've known..

and now i've lost..

those relationship tat keep promisin..

but it turns out to be a lie..

those hapie momnts tat we've spent as a familie..

will everitink turns out to be the wae it hapen in the past,

will ii be losinn maa friends like ii lose herr?..

will ii be losinn maa lovee like those guys?..

will ii repeat those mystakes tat i've made?..

and will ma familiee bondinn be as strong as in the past?..

ii wonderr..

2009-06-24T08:34:00.000-07:00

hanya meredhakan dan melalui setiap detik ini dengan penuh kesabaran..
takdir..takdir yang menentukan segala-galanya
biarlahh..
mungkin belum tiba untukku mendapat jawapannya..

haloohaloo people..ignoree those werds tat were mention above..juzt some random werds cmink out frm ma mind..niwaee soriee ferr not beinkk able to updatee maa blog.. been totalie busy wif stuff & mny things lingerin thruu ma mind..dun wish to elaborate more on it..niwaee tagg will soon be eeplii.. wen im free okae darlink-darlinkkKuu..
okiiluhh got to end it here..
nidto do some stuff..
too lovee..IMY..nn to all... smilee olwaes kae:)

2009-06-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

babyy..are we driftingg..

drifting apart as daes pass by..

or is it maaii tinkinn..

let just hope tat it's the other waee..

causee im missinn the us..

in the past..

soo ii guess befree ii strt bloggin aboutt maii daee..ii wanna wishh wanii.. if euu aree readinkk ma blogg..Hapiee 20th burfdae .. maee euu last long wokeyhh wif firr woteyhh darlinkk..

and maee euu lead a hapie lyfee ahead of uu..be hapiee olwaess darl..

this wish is from mii and zul:))

okii.. ii guess..overr wif all tat im suppose to type..lets move on to wat haf taken place fer the past few daes..

was totalie tired afta workk..

sodon't realiee haf tha energyy to updatee heree..apartfrm tatt..maai cuzies spent

a few nites overnitingg at maii house..

gawshh..he has realie grwn much more mtured noww..hahaxx..

been listenin to mistri jam12 tis few daes.. bbie keep scaringg mii wif those tingss..bluekk..

hatee euu fer tat..

tokinn about love..tis whole week..totalie taught us mny things..ii just hope tat everitink gonna be beta fer us..in future..

okiiluhh got to end it heree..

nitee people:)

2009-06-18T19:07:00.000-07:00

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
I feel for you
yes i do
I'll be with you
as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

heyyhhooo to those hus at maii blogg readinnkk maii postt..
jheee..thankxx yaww fer readinnkk..
ntinkk muchh to tokk bout wat took place fer mii todae..
okeyyhh..ii went out to mitt maii bbyGf...it's been awhile sice ii last mit up wif her..gawshh.IMISHHHERR luuhh seyhh..yeahh..we bothh updated each otherr..
and spentt till noon wif her..afta tat went home..to changee and refreshh as im mitinnk bbyLove afterr tat..iimishhHymm TOO luhh seyhh.. bby still not feeling well..get well soon syg..
about the talk we had at nite..bbyy.. ii just hope tat everitink gonna be okae..cause ii dun wishh to haf tis kind of tinkingg..and ii dun wishh to see us in a serious conversation everitime..
okii..
okiiluhh got to end it here..
goin to clip..tmrw gonna be maii first dae of werk..wishh mii luckk kaee..jhhee..bubbiezz

2009-06-15T21:54:00.000-07:00

[[feet could only walk for some mile

clothes won't forever be in style

heart could only love for a while

for me, knowing you is like forever]]

oukii..tats a short little poem dedicated to maa lovee..

HALOOhaloo earthhTings~!!..

its een a tiringg week fer mii..cause thers plentyy of house chores to do and mannyy cleaningg up to do..seriuzlie it have been realie a tiring dae fer mii..fer the past few daes..

not bein able to mit up wif Love..fer like 4 daes..ryte?..

haishh,missinn hymm..seriuzie i do..i meann..its our first time..not bein able to mit up fer daes..haishh..will mit hym soon..

too LOVE..get well soon okeyyh dear..dun wishh to see eu suffer like this..haishh..

seriuzlie..im missin maii BbyMonyett & ma BbyLove..

gonna mit temm soon..yeahh..

lookin ferward to mitt euu guyss..kluhh..got to end it here..cause thers nutinkk muchh to saee..will update soon..

2009-06-15T21:30:00.000-07:00

You never ever judged me,
You understood my sorrow.
Then you told me
it needn't be that way
And gave me the hope
of a better tomorrow.
You were always there for me,
I knew I could count on you.
You gave me advice and encouragement
Whenever I didn't know what to do.
You helped me learn to love myself
You made life seem so good.
You said I can do anything
I put my mind to
And suddenly I knew I could.
There were times when we didn't see eye to eye
And there were days when both of us cried.
But even so we made it through:
Our friendship hasn't yet died.
Circumstances have pulled us apart,
We are separated by many miles.
Truly, the only thing that keeps me going
Is my treasured memory of your smile.
This friendship we share
Is so precious to me,
I hope it grows and flourishes
And lasts unto infinity.

2009-06-15T00:34:00.000-07:00

ii guess stayinn at home isn't the ryte place ferr mii..ts a promise..and gudluckk fer eur Olevel
ii just duune why..but ii cant stayy here..crpped up inside..
haishh..
ii wanna be free..free to go out..
this few daes..families has olwaes make it busy fer mii to go oout..
ii mean..thers olwaes a pplan or an activity tat will force mii to stayy..rsather ten goin out wif maii love..and frens..im so missinn everione..oopss...nooo..
ii meann..im missinn maii love and maa closest frens..
maaii 'siblinks'..thoughh i've not been mittinn tem..but eu guys still keep mii updated on everitinkk..and to maii GF.. its been awhile since ii last mit up wif euu..will mit up wif euu soon..ii pwomisee..best of luckk darlink2 kuuu..ffer eur Olevel..cause its in 4 months tyme..

and too maii dearie Love..
im sorii cause ii guess i've not been actingg maii usual self..ii mean..i've been quite a sensitive gurl fer the past few daes.. ii realie dunnoe..the reason bhnd all this..but ii guess..ii just haf this fer..that those past of mine..will cme back to us..seriuzlie..ii just has this tinkingg of mine..
but i will mke tis mindset of mine chnge..okii..dun weriee..
ii jus wan uu to noe..how muchh ii apreciate euu all this while..and dearr..a few more daes to go ferr ouur 3rd mnthh..IMYY &ILY

2009-06-14T23:51:00.000-07:00

halooohALOOO..
guess its been daes..ive neva been updatingg ma blog..
maii fwens and even Love asked mii to update..nn here ii am updatinn it.
okii..
lets rewind backk..wat i've been doin fer the past few daes..
okii..
on the 12th jUNE..went out wif lovee and maii younger siblibks..aboi & iqahh..
went to catch a movie wif tem..*the ghost of girlfriend past ' if im not mistakenn..
ryte??..
hehee..we watched it at the suntec cityy.. goshh..teyy can realie click..ii mean its onlie a few tyme teyy mit up wif each otherr..but it seems tat tey haf known each otherr fer quite awhile..ii just hope tat he enjoyed tat dae wif maii siblinks..causee teyy cann be quite crazyy and hyperractive tooh..haishh..realie enjoyed ma dae..hopefulie we wil have another outing like this again one daee..okii..on the 13th june..
went out to escape wif maii auntyy and uncle..goshh it was superrhh hot..ii meant the weatherr..
don't realie enjoyed muchh cause im havingg mensruation cramp.ouchh...it totaliie hurts..
haishh..
can't mit bbyLove on tat dae cause we reach home like reaching to midnite..
realie mishh him loads..
on the 14th..
went out wif maii both uncle and maii auntyy and not to fergett maii siblinks..
went to pc roadshow..suppose to be..we need to shop for atul's dress as she haf to follow maii another uncle familie to KL on the 15th..tat is todaee..but the queue was totalie long..maii uncle recntrctin hys mobile..so haf to wait..and it ends up late nite..haishh..had some misunderstand with bbyy..
but we manage to settle it..
ii realie mishh hymm..not bein able to mit hym fer daes..haishh..
lookin ferward to mit hymm..
get well soon dearr..

2009-06-11T09:19:00.000-07:00

hALoo eARthHInGG~!! NN lOvaBle PeOOpLLE rEaDiiNNkk Ma BLoGGyY..

wEeEee..

aniiwaee those pichas above was taken on the 10th of june..

camwhoriin usiin bbyLove handphone in tha bus..

hehee...

went outt wif bbyLove.. and shashaa..

supposed to be.. adaawiyya aree supposed to joinn us..

but shhe's not feelinkk tat well..

gett well soon woteyy adawiyya..

aniwaee went outt wif temm to vivooCityy..

misshh bothh of temm loads..

mishh maii dearrr more,,hehe

oopss..fergetten to take picha wif shasha..

will take one wif her soon wokeyyhh smuee..

hehee..

niwaee back to the storiee..

afta vivoo..we went to geylang east Lib..

and guess wat,therss tis babyy..

kiutee lahh seyhh..

seriuzliee..if im not mistaken her name was aishha..dmnn kiutee..

hahahaa...bbie,will grant that wishes okeyhh syg..

but not now..but soonn okeyhh sygg..

ii noe euu noe..

hehee..okiluhh till heree..

nakk hear mistri jam12..

and chattinkk wif love now..

will update soon okeeyhh..

2009-06-08T07:27:00.000-07:00

haloOo EArThINgGS~!!!

nutinkk muchh hapenn todaee..cause ii spend most of the tyme in maii room cleaningg upp..and throwngg up thinggs..as new furniture are cominng soon..nid to rushh..hahaa:P

apart from thatt..met up wif bbyLove..evenn if its onlie a while..but ii guess its beta ten nutinkk..

BbieeLove..get well soon okii..and to eur mum too..

btw Bbie asked mii sumtinkk just now..

whichh till now ii dun reallie noe the answerr..ggoshh

Bbie:

blh ke ur ibu accept me(can eur mum accpt mii?)

mii:

knape nii(whyy..)

bbie:

juzt tkt jek syg(justt scaredd)

haishh..ii realie dunnoe if mai prents can accept hym but believe mii..no matter what happen.. ii wont let is seperate bth of us up..seriuzliee ii dunnoe wat will hapen to mii..if im goin to lose euu..frankly..cause everyy places of maii daily routine..has those memories of us.and thatt mkes it more harder fer mii to fergett euu apart from all those time we spnt togethaa..

.eur familie has oreadi accpted mii..but maii parents..ii realie dunnoe how to break tis news to them.. cause till this time ma familie keep havingg misunderstandin..and im not realie in gud terms wif tem..but not to werie..maii siblinks..and evenn mai uncle has accpted euu..wil try and prove to those that our r/ship will last throughout the end kae dearr..

okiiokii..apart from all thjose mention above..

ii seriuzliee missinn maii fwens..ii meann..maa lovables secondary skool mates..

will mit uu guys asapp kaee syg-sygKuu..

aniwaee hhad job interview cminkk soon..

praying hard im gona get it..tis boredom will soon kill mii...

sickk of hearingg those noise at home..damnn..

apart from that..ii wanna soentt most of the tyme wif bbyLove..and maii fellow frens toohh

misshh temm loadz luhh..

okiiluhh..gnna end it here..til tha next tyme okaee..

chatin wif bbyLove now..

tadaaass(:

2009-06-07T07:47:00.000-07:00

a little summaryy of what took place just now..

went out to mit bbyLove...goshh..realie misz maii dearr..

we went to WestMall..it was a last minute plan cause supose to be..

todae spend tyme wif familie..

but..heheex:P

to mke the story short..we go watchh the Terminator Salvation..

a realie thumbs up storryy..

thnks bbyy fer the wonderful daee..

weee..ILY sygg..

btww to adawiyya..

she'll be ouke..

dun werie kaee..just prayy hrd tt nutink wil happen to herr..

okiiokii..

a reminder fer maself..(impt datee

15th june-alex's bthdae

22nd june-gurfwen's burfdae

23rd june-ahBoys burfdae & outinkk

26th june-ehem date..hehee(3rd mntth)

okii..okii..

got to end it heree..nid to switch off now..

pwomise bbylove to sleep early..

will update soon..

tadaas

2009-06-05T05:05:00.000-07:00

Haloo EaRtHpEOpLee~!!!

been missing in action fer the past few daes due to dozens of stuffs to do and not to ferget i've just completed ma exams a few daes back.. ii guess eu guys should be asking ryte whyy ii've been privatin ma blog tis few daes..its mainly bcoz its still under reconstructin.. as ii needed to start afresh due to those stuff that has taken place a few daes back.

don't realie wish to elaborate more on it.let just bygone be bygone.. cause ii dun see the need for mii to be reminded of thatt incident..

Okiiokii..to Wanii..shock to see both euu nn Firr picha in maa post..

hahaa..okeyhh2.. ii just wanna sayy ii reallie had fun goin out wif both of euu,Adawiyya & BbyLOve tooh~!..thanks fer accmpanyin mii to collct mai passport..n..yeahh..im lookin ferward ferr ts 23rd..sshhh..euu noe ii noe okii guys...currently ii don't have any pichas taken wif adawiya..will take it from BbyLove phone..soon..hehehex~!!..

to maii MonkeyyBby..oopss..too maii bbyGurfwenn..and the restt of ma secndryy skool matess..all the best ferr urr upcminkk Os & N kaee lalinklalinkkuu..

hhaahaxx..winduu bngett samerr kamuu smuee..

aniwaee before ii end maii post,to Bbylove..

never in maii mind to walk awae..

the love thatt eu showers mii wif everidae..

make maii hart fallin fer euu more from daes pass by..

though theres ups and downs tat we faces togetha..

im hapie ii haf euu in maii life sygg..

2009-05-08T23:39:00.000-07:00

harlooo~!! to those whose at my blog reading this post..I don’t really know what to type… but it has been days since ii last blog… and ii doubt I’m going to have time to blog when next week start. Will be busy with projects and even worse.., exams are approaching~!!!... Need to wake up and stop being in dreamland because ii really got no time to waste. Not going to waste a year more as I used to. . Promise someone that I have to finish my studies fast and promise my BbyYanie to join her in studying at polytechnic together. Will try to keep those promises in my mind, to keep myself motivated. School has yet to get better as everybody trying their best to be united. Baby never fails to put up with my attitude and keep supporting and motivating me in everything. I will try my best to change myself slowly and be assured that I do treasure this relationship more than anything else. To my secondary school mates, good luck for you MYE results. Lucky for you cause you have sit for your exam. Mine are approaching. Wish me luck oke…

2009-05-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

huhhuuuhuhuu..

a little summary of what took place just now..

hehee..beforee ii startt..

ii wanna apologies to bbyLove..

bcoz came without tellingg..hehe~!!

OkoKok..ii guess eu guys been wonderingg what actuallie took place ryte just now..

its like this.. both mii and maii fourth sista plan out to drob by BBYlove work place..but we musn't leak out the secrets..as it was meant to be a surprise..

wee plan out this as we both were left all alone..as the rest of our family members went to Johore..boredom~!..tats tge reason whyy..

hehee..sorrii bbyy(: ..

okiokii..apart from tat nutinkk muchh hapenn..

just clean up a little and watch tv..

weee..

hehee..

BbY..ILY&IMYSM..

2009-05-02T07:49:00.000-07:00

its hard to sae gudbyee..whenn its tyme to go..ii justt wishh..tat therz isn't any need for mii to go..ii wanna b there..beside uu..at all times..neva to leave uu even fer a momnt..
baby.. ii dunch noe how to put it in werds..but bby,just lettin uu noe..

tat eu meant a lot to mii..seeing eu isufferin..and in painn..goshh..how ii wishh ii'm the one hus sufferin..and not euu..

ouhh gawd.. at least let mii suffer half of it..nn hym..the other half..

its totaliie a heart pain in seeing hym like thatt.. haishh

and ii just hope that the dream that ii dreamt ystrdaee wont come truee..

ii dunchnoe how amm ii suppose to lead maii lyfe without hym..

ii dun wishh to learn to lead a life which onlie haf his memoryy in maii mind..

ii noe it mae seem a bit emotional and mushyy..

but ii guess im just typin based on th ething that keep lingerin in maii mind..

onlii bbyLove noe wats all this about..

btw heylooHeyloo lovee..

ii realie got nutinkk muchh to type..

but ii guess somehow ii'm no longerr haf the feelingg to go to skool..

sumtymes ii just dragged maii feet therr.. and even if ii come.. its just bcoz ii wish to get eveitink done asap..ii dunchnoe whyy.. but ferr mi.. theres no longerr a familie bonding inside.. ii just missed the old tyme.. nahh..nvm..ii bet euu guys dun haf any idea wats happenin.. iall ii can sae is that ii realie mishh those famiilie bondd inside our klass..

haishh..in aniwae lets just hope that this upcomin chalet gonna make us bond like we used to..okeyhh.. FA0901B~!!!REMINDER!!! $15 BY TUESDAE..

if euu guys still wish fer this chalet thing to go on..

aniwaee maii loveable peeps..

ii had fun just noww..

tanx bbyLove,dylla,ada & shaqiq in makin maii daee..

2009-04-30T01:00:00.000-07:00

to ma bbyLoVE..
this post is specially made fer euu..
You move me..
Make me feel things I thought I would never feel again.
When I am with you,
I feel a warmth wash over me.
A warmth unlike any I have felt before.
It picks me up and carries me to a far off place,
A beautiful place...
A place where nothing is known but love and caring.
My worries fade to a distant memory,
And all but you is forgotten,
If only for the moment...
My heart is overflowing with joy and love,
The joy that you bring to me,
And the love that I feel for you.
Never have I come across anyone like you...
Sweet, warm, tender, caring...
I become overwhelmed in your presence,
lost...
Lost to my imagination,
to the thought of you.
I'm lost in a wonderful dream,
and I never want to wake up.
I keep with me your everlasting love,
and bless the day God sent you from above.
You remain my angel and I feel that I must
,tell you that within you, you have my trust.
My love is the tide,
your soul is the shores,
you have my heart,
do I have yours?
I'll belong to you till the very end,
and you will forever stay as my lover and friend.
It has been so good like this from the start,
so darling please, trust me with your heart
You are my waking thought
And the last thing on my mind
As I drift off to sleep at night.
You fill my dreams with visions of happiness and love,
Visions that linger on and carry me through my day.
There is a longing in my heart
That someday we will become a reality.
I want you with every fiber of my being.
I need you as I need water, or food, or air.
I miss you every second of every day.
And for everything that you are to me,
Everything that you will ever be,I love you...

2009-04-29T20:21:00.000-07:00

oLlaAa~~!!

weee,its the end of maii third assignment and its gonna be a long weekend for mii and maii coursemates too..

btw soriie fer not bein able to update ma blog due to tight schedule and busy completing mai assignment..

many things haf happen recentlyy..most was great..

and some are unpleasant moments,but its okaee..cause maii fwens are here giving mii support and not to ferget maii bbyLove tooh~!..

thanks guys fer givin mii support.

to bbyLove,thnks dearr fer helpin mii and temanING mii till late at night just to wait till ii finishes mai assignmnt.

wee~!!

went out with maii gurfwens,and maii bbyLove..

Dylla,Sabariahh,Adawiyya & nisahh..

we went out to NLB to discuss on our assignment..

and after that went to watch 'JANGAN TEGUR' with bbyLove..

met up wif dylla & nisahh therr and we watched the show togetha..

it was a scary movie but it was worth it..

after tat we proceed to play arcade..Kecohh luhh seyhh~!..

hehee.. did ii ferget to mention tat maulid joined us fer the arcade thing..

seriuzly..those two guys..aiyoo.. ii guess its real wen they sae tat guys are meant to be guys..wen it comes to games..hehee~!..

sorri bby..

last but not least.. happie one month anniversaryy dearie love..

sorri we haf to celebrate it by spending tyme doin mai assignment..

and many tings happen on that particular dae..

haishh.. but everyting turn out to be fine after we have a small talk..

ii just hope this ting won't happen again..causee ii just want both of us to be happiee..

loads of lovee..

bbyy, ii treasured and appreciate every moment that we spent tgethaa..

2009-04-29T09:18:00.000-07:00

its past midnite now, and im still wide awake..
ii guess most of mai friends are now in their dreamLAND..
ii could not close maii eyes..despite feeling tired..
sumtinkk keep lingering in ma mind..
butt ii dunoe if ii sholud type it here..
haishh..ii guess i'll just pour evrytingg here..
it may be sound so emotional..
but HEYY..its the random side of mii okaee!
im just tired of keepin it to maiself as if nutink happen..
soo ii hope euu guys can spare mii this post just to read the other random side of mii story..
to bby..if eu re readin tis..im sorrii if tis post is so diff..ii hope eu understand wat im trying to sae..

galfwen,eu seem to be far awae..
eventhough the distances that seperate us isn't that far..
maybe time changes everitinkk..
we don't seem to be able to comunicate much to each other..
ii just miss those outing that we both enjoyed togetha..
laughing our heads out,
ignoring those strangers whose lookingg at our cwaziness..
we were both therr fer each other thru ups and down..
ii dunnoe why, at times ii tend to regret chosing to end maii secondary life..
bcoz of those thing that took place in maii class..
it makes mii missing secondary life more..
it just that no one are similar to euu..
it just don't feel the same..
haishh..
ii noe ii got to accept the fact that the past will stil remain as a past.
maybe the incident that recently took place in mai class made mii has this feeling of missing mai secondary life..
ii guess ii do prefer ma former classmates..
things are beginning to change a lot in class..
ii just wishh ii could be maii ownself,like ii used to..
just speak out of mai mind wen ii feel like it..
im not showingg mai true self coz ii noe,
it will sound harsh and ii no longer want to be like watt ii used to be..
but ii guess its overr luhh..
come to think of it againn..
its beta fer mii to be maii self..
so im just speaking it out of mai mind here..

im aint the decent type of gurl whereby euu mae just take advantage of mii by stepping over maii head..im just being too kind as to just shut mai ears or act as if nutinkk took place as eu guys are in the same klas as mii..ii noe it was ppose to b a joke..but guys..eu went over eur limit..to those hu tis might concern..(warning..it mae sound hurtful..but ii gt no c'owkae uhh..kowngg naq aen ini game..snang uhh.. aquu peyhh owngg bkn snang uhh untk kowng pijakk ataw telan.. aquu pndang kowngg camne aqu pndang yang aen uh.. aqu peyh owng taq sker uhh aen game,tap law kowng naq aku aen ni game..aqu on..aqu cmerr naq ckp uhh.. slagii aquu takk bebual pasl kaw..kaw jgn bebual pasl aquu uh.. so WAT if aqu sker dngar agu2 tuu smue?.. does it concernn euu??.. damn shit,its not even eur concernn.. why must eu step into the wae i am..whenn i dun even step into eurs.. okaee uhh,snang crite..mmng uhh aquu cmpr bdk2 pat luar.. jgn mcm phm uhh law kowng sndiri taq lepakk nan bdk2.. and why in the werld kowng listen to those songs.. snang bbual uhh..kowngg jilat alek uh ludahh kowngg.. agu2 mat/minahrep.. taq minat dngar2 aguu gituu.. haiya.. tap skarang?..bnyk bbual bnyk bhng uhh kae!.. bnyyk ag uhh untk aquu type..tapp sndiri mauu inggt uh joyy..aqu myntaq paiseyy uh law ape aqu tlis sketkn ati kaw..tap nii uh cara aquu..and kowng nakk aqu bebual cara aquu kan..'

2009-04-20T08:45:00.000-07:00

Ku selit namaMu di celahan rinduu..
Ku selit namaMu di pematang biruu
agar dikau abadi di hatiKu...
Terima Kasih ku ucapkan pada Muu
kerna sudii menerima,menyayangi & menyintaii diriKu..
dengan sepenuhh hatimu..

huhuuu..Aloo earthIngss~!!..
its been a while since ii last updated..
tight skool schedule and personal stuff kept mii busyy to update..
manyy tings have took place tis few daes..
things and people surrounding mii chnging..
haishh..
but no matter wat..
im just glad that mai bbyGf ist finally backk..
wee..ohh goshh..
ii realie mises her lotss..
bbyYaniee & bbyChacha if u're reading tis..
kyna shyng kowng luhh seyhh..
everione seems to b chnging eversince skool's reopen..
ii dunnoe..if its onliee ma feeling or wat..
but ii just misses everibodii..
hopefulie tis will onlie b fer a while jk..
& to ma BbyLovee..
Euu neba fail to make ma daee..
withh those smile & laughter..
let just hope tis relationship of ours will last eternityy..
bby.. 5more daes to go..
ily..& imysm

2009-04-11T05:31:00.000-07:00

MySpace Codes at BlingPixie.comfriends comes and friends go..somehow or somewhat ii totalie misses someone apart from ma bbyy..a bestfriend of mine.. ii just wonder if our friendship is a s strong as wat it was in the past?..maybe our distances and time..make us drifted apart.. hheard from others..u've change..into a different person whom tey last know..ii dunoe..do euu?.. i just hope eu don't..but if eu have..ii'll just go with the flow.. besties..ii just misses those daes..wherr our craziness gets over us.. those laughterr and sadness that we've shared..but now,i onlie update myself about uu..thru others..and eur blog..as i read ur blog,kipin mii updated on uu..sumhow ii dunnoe if uu stil need mii to sae all this..'baby, be strong in facing all this.. hys gone..soo??.. dun eva let ur emotions gets over uu.. and sumhow..ii realised tings are becoming diff afta that jerk left.. haishh..baby,u've faced it before.. if uu can ferget ur past..y not hym.. ii noe it hurts..a lot.. but uu musn't let tis jerk haf those thinking tat uu're stil waitink fer hym ryte..even if uu stil hopin fer that.. he hurt uu once..wat mkes uu tink his not goin to hurt uu..again?..baby.. ask eurself a question..eu here sobbing and hurting..seeing hym go..ten he??..out there enjoying..like eu've said in eur previous post..hys just a playboi.. ryte.. baby..trust mii..eu are beta off without hym..eu musn't let tat jerk spoils everitink.. eur prelim is around the corner dear..study hard..get the best point from ther n ur O-levels.. and show it to hym..uu can still do it w/o hym.."okiluhh..im gonna end it here.. gurfyy.. dun eva shed a tear fer a guy..hus not werth tat tear.. rmbr tat phrase?.. the phrase uu used wen im in tha same situation last tyme..

2009-04-11T01:02:00.000-07:00

HALoOHalOO earthtings~!!

i've just changed mai blogskins..as the previous one look so plain..

a new skins..a new tagboard changed as mai new chapter of life begin..

school reopening soon..in a few days time..

goshh..im soo looking forward for that..

mumie making mai stae at home a totalie nightmare..

damn..sumhow ii wonder..if she's goin thru tat..euu noee..wat ii mean...

she's a total change now..its just like yesterday..she smile and laugh with us..i meant maii familie..but now..those smiles has totalie disappear..damn..

todae seems to be totalie boring..stuck at home..and have to cancel all those plans tat dadie made for us..due to that..haishh..pity dadie..he too..sufferin..like us..haishh..please let tis moment end..ii just wish for maii whole family to be able to sit togetha..laughing and smiling like we olwaes do..haishh..

for now ii just need mai uncle to come and rescue us..CIKjoe.. come faster..plsss~!!!

im missing ma friends,all of themm..even mai babyDear too..

wondering if each and everyone of them misses mii too..

lets just keep waiting till ii got to mit them all..and spent maii tyme wif them..

baby,eu make maii love grow as daes goes by..

2009-04-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

OllLa..OlAaa..felloww readers..hehee:P

sorrii fer not been updatinkk mai blogg..ma comp has just been fixed todaee.. and im also been busy spendingg maii tyme..wif maii love ones.. maii fwens..WeEEe~!!..holidae coming to the end..and guess wat it mean.. it mean no more boredom..haha~!!..im soo missin mai lovable and cwaziee classmate. btw to DYLLA..and WATI..happie2 birthdae to eu gals..swit 20 and sweet 18thh..wee~!.. cant wait til mondae..and update each other.. kyna windu bngett luuh sey pat kowng smue!

and not to fergett..i've just gotten a sepupu.. ii've frgtten how it was promounce..in englishh..nebamind..btw she was born on the 8th of april..did ii mention she was mai first sepupu fwom mai mother's side??..wee~!!!.. Tuhfah IS LOVE by mii..

in aniwae.. to ma bbyy..

While others tell me I have faults and flaws,

And pick me all apart and criticize,

You love me,

sweetheart,

just the way I am;

I only see affection in your eyes.
My pesky quirks you only find endearing;

Your perfect mate is what you choose to see;

I love you for a multitude of reasons;

And most of all 'cause you let me be me.
I never have to change to meet your standards;

Acceptance is the greatest gift you give;

I appreciate you for your sweet devotion,

And I’ll love you for as long as we shall live.

2009-03-21T00:36:00.000-07:00

halloo EarthhTinggs:))

the daee has finally cme..nn smallboi has to go..

pergi untuk menunaikan ibadah umrahnye..

.................................

went to bby chqa's house to mit up wif bby juliee & bby yati..
having some makeup session..hhaax~!

and gurls talk tooh~!

siap-siapin oweadi..

rush to smallboi house..

packed luhh seyy~!..

& GUESS WHAT??

ma lil bro aderr luhh,rascal~!!!

tats totalie surprised us..ghee~!!akuu windu kaw luh oit adeq~!!

and tears rolls down ma cheek..wen ii heard smallboi singin OUr song..

haishh..wats gonna hapenn to the fweedom..

ii mean smallboi was olwaes here..wif us..

but hys goin awae..fer two weeks..

lets just pray fer hys well-bein ther.

mae ALLAH blessed hys journey..tgetha wif hys dad & kakak..

..hmm..

above was the picha taken todae..

a full SIBLINKS was theree..

hehee~!..

afta tat met up wif danii..

hehee..~!

spent time wif hym..

chit-chatin til midnite,,

& yeahh..went home afta tat..

okii luhh..gnna update soon..takinkairre

2009-03-20T21:14:00.000-07:00

haLooOo lil people out therr..

todae its the 20th marchh..

& guess what?~!

its the end of the terrmm..

WeEeEEeEee~!!!

ii just needed this break soo muuchh~!!

tiredd luhh..

hhaha!

been busy with twoo assignment..

drawing & ADP..

pheww~!!

manage to complete it & handed it on time..

aniwae todaee not realie in the mood..

slippyy luhh seyy..

nebamind..butt ii tryy too b a lil cwaziee..

just to kip mii awakkee!

hahaha~!!

okiiluhh til heree

nakk go cliiipppp~~!!!

fellow love,hapie holidaee~!!

dun fergett miie owteyyy

2009-03-13T09:56:00.000-07:00

to all muslim people hus not readink ma blogg..
mari kiter samer2 sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk seorang rakanKu yang baru sahaja kehilangan ibunya..hopefullie by doink tis..it wil make her journeyy in the other side of the world betta..
insya'allahh..
to Fatimah( the friend of mine..
ii noe its hard ferr euu..as eu've just sumne hum euu truly love..without her,theres no euu..but ii guess every lil thing tat ALLAH swt done..has a meanink behind itt.. he dun wish to let eur mum suffer in tis werld..the pain..due to her illness..
insya'allah eu'll see herr in eur next life..if theres chance.. b strong okeyy.. ii mae not b a close fren of eurs.. but if eu eva nid mii..in tha future..i'l try to b there..move on okey dear.. ii noe its hard...but girl..i have faith in uu..okii..

2009-03-13T09:19:00.000-07:00

aFEWguysInmaiiFweedomFAMILY..

haloo gorgeous people inn thee whole wide earthhh..hahaxx..okiiokii..lets gett serious..haloo fellow peeps hus at ma blogs..readiinkk.. sorri for not being able to post a proper post...tis few daes has beenn a tiring daes for mii..many tings to do..& yet just a lil time to complete.. --note to self: mondae_thumnails fer ADP & drawink class.. :Thursdae: assignmnt dae for coridor.. & fridae:poster of maii own storyy to b handed in..in ADP class..

lets justt rewind wat took place on wednesdae,thursdae & fwidae okeyhh.. on wednesdae..no classes fer tat dae..as the april intake students wil b sitting fer their orientation examm..best of luck guys..i've done mine..hehehe..ii went to CCK(marx's house) wif watii,is,zai & aniee..dyllahh has sumtink on..so she's not tagging along..hmm..nebamind,stil got the next tyme..rytee..first tyme luhh sey..go therr..takingg bus..its superr the long ride in the bus..as the duration from Tampines inter to CCK inter..is roughly about 2 hours tyme..& its superr cold tooh..inside the bus..ggrr..heheehe..met up the rest at the CCK interr..the gurls..went to tis fashion nn alanoo at therr..damn luhh..tey having sale..should've brought along mai money leii..nbm..afta tt proceed to marx housee.. marx nn his parent realie gave us a warm welcome..nn yeahh..Marx..if eu're readink tis..thnks taw..many2 tanx..fer all those troubles we've caused eu nn eur parents while we were at eur house.. his house was superr the nice leii..heehee..to make the story short..we watched the dark knight at therr..& guess wat..i falled aslip..halfwae thruu the show..realiee paiseyy seyy -.-..afta ten..we went to LOT1..theres lots of mickeyy mouse therr...!!!..dam luhh..teyy are the cutestt nn also maii fav..heehh..must come here againn..to buyy mickeeyy..heheee.. btw we had super great tyme therr.. lookin ferward fer the next visit to CCK..heeh..

thursdae:nutinkk much hapenn..ii guess..or perhaps i've frgtten..hehee..sowiie..

fridae..skool starts at 9,ii overslept.but manage to get theree..before the locks even reached 0910..hehee....oopss..yeahh before it slips thru ma mind..its FRIDAE the 13th..sum ppl believe tt sumtink cwazie gonna take place todae..skool ended quite earlyy todae..as our 2nd class have been cancelled..mr Richard are on Mc..it was raininkk..totaliie a heavy rain..afta class ended..when we are otw to singapore post around 12 plus..we waited till the rain cools down a bit..heeh..tanx niseh & also bby kellis..fer the umbrella thingy..hehee.. reached singPost around 1 plus..chit-chatting wif niseh & dylla.. nn yeahh saddiq came at 2 plus afta doin his fwidae prayer..nn yeahh ssoo onn..lazy luuh to type..

btw BBYyaniiee.Siblinks&Fweedom family, AdeqRascal especially.euu guys are reallie bein missed by mii luhh..

my drawingss((:

2009-03-11T05:39:00.000-07:00

below are some of mai drawings tat i've drawn overr tis few months.. ii've got nutinkk much to sae but ii guess uu guys must b wnderin why im posting about my drawings.. ii justt wanna tanx myy drawiin tcherr..fer neva givinn upp..& kip nailings us till we've achieve tis kind of drawings.. it maee look normal.. hmm..but as a starterr..its a sumtinkk..ryte FA0901B??..heheee.. & also lat but not leastt..maii fweenss who alsoo nevaa givinn up in helpin mii..guidin mii.. nn gaving mii supportt.. uu guyss aree lurrvee by miii(: Suhaidi's handphone & maii ipodd.. both attached wif earpiece Ms Sri's camera was drewn
reference from internet

first trial in drawin sphere & cylinder DEE's Bag a sculpture in drawing class was drewn toy car((: lovvee((: flowerr in a bottle(:

wati's bag..recently drawn & the latest one too. heehh different sizes of perfumes bottle..ghee..one of it are minee minnie mousee..gheeee..at lastt..i've drawn my fav catroon chracter a love shape wif a crown attached to it lil donald duckk holdn on to an ice cream...

different kind of shaapes bein attached togethaa

2009-03-04T08:14:00.000-08:00

heyylooo!!
been busy wif many2 stuff..
sorii fer not updatink..
a note fer maself..before ii frgtten..

(ADP pictorial album..due soon..)
(sketches over the weekend..due tommrw)

hmmm..
an update over the past few daes..

got to noe tat our drawing teacher are coming.
soon..& bcoz of tat.. mr wan won't be taking 1B..
hmm..
but no fear..hys stil gnna b there..to coach us..
even if its not like now..
no matter wat..
im just glad to b taught by hym..
nn yeahh..
thnkieuu ferr coachin us..nn train us..
until uu urself bcme stressed up..
heheee..
...
my lil bro is in..fer a year..
hopefullie his gonna b a better person...
dun werie adeq..
all of us goona wait til euu are free..once again..
we all mishh euu.

........

to my gurfyy..

the broken promises..but ii understand eur situation..
dun eva do tat again..
owteyy..
bite uu ten uu noe.
heeh..
glad tat bby is slightly moving on..
ii noe it hurts to b n the same skool as tt..
but uu can do it dearr..
just believe in urself dear..
rmbr tt uu r neba alone..okii..
...........

2009-02-27T22:29:00.000-08:00

heyy bby..how ii wishh ii could b bside uu & lent uu ma shoulder..
to let uu pour out all ur miseryy..nn stuff..
but ii just wanna eu to noe tat im here..
olwaes..evenn wen eu needed sumone to tok to..
kyna's here.. no matter wat tyme..
as long as im stil livin in tis werld..
be assured tat im here okeyh lil sis.
bby..
if uu neva stop sheddin tears..
ur eyes wil b like mii..
sepet..
smile bby.. im weried..nn i bet mama too..
pwomise mii..tt uu gonna b okeyyhh..
dun let tis ting distracts uu..or chnge uu..
ii mis uu..the hyper bby tt ii've known.

i'm comink down to visit eu guys soon..
maybe on fridayy..or wednesdae..

nn get tis clear..MR Solihinn..
dun eva let mii see euu..or trace eu sumwher wen im therr..
cause boi.. euu gonna get it..
as pwomises..u've hurt her..
nn by hurting herr..euu noe..euu askin fer it..
kaw da jnjii..neva goona hurt her
last tyme gonna b the last time..
so ii let go of euu tt tyme
nn now..NEVA!!

2009-02-27T02:39:00.001-08:00

a silent tear..
somehow...
ii just wish ii can give up evritinkk..& run..
run to a place wher no one knew,not even ma own fllesh & blood..
its fwidae todae.. & wen iim startin to start my weekend wif a smile afta
bein an emotionaly distraction fer the past few daes..
it turns out tat todae is tha werst..
werst to werst..im regrettin..
regret in joinin and became an ITE student..not tat ii hated skool or sumtink..
it just tat sumone in my family starting to look down on mi..
all over again..
the same ting happen back then..wen ii haf to be retained sec3..
& the feeling now is gettin werse as she's getting her diploma cert..soon.. n mii?..
just wif an N-level cert..
uu get it?.. haishh
apart fwom it.. yeahh..ii ws called sumtink by mai own mum..
dun wiish to mention..coz it simply hurt mii..
& til now,ii dunnoe wat ii did to b called tat..
it feels like ii was bein stabbed at the back wif a knife.. a sharp knife..
gawd,just wen ii just wanna change maself n becme a girl tat mumie n dadie gonna be proud wif..afta years of hurting tem wif ma nonsence atti.
granny was rge one hu console mii..
if isn't fer her..
i wil go out..nn wil onlie return wen im calm..
haishh
ii guess,i just goonna be the sakinah the last time..
im tired of pretending to b wat i am not..
no matter how good ii am or how angelic ii am..
theres stil sumone out ther hu hates mi..
& yupp..
to tat sumone hu just hated mii..inside ma class..
ii dunnoe whyy uu hated mii tt muchh..afta all those tings tt ii did..
nevamind..ii dun wish to noe everitinkk..
just save ur explaination..
coz ii aint gonna b bothered bout it nimoree..
& to ma bbyGF.. ii dun wish to trouble uu nimore wif the pwoblms iim having..
maeb uu can simply knew wats goin on by readin tis post..
the details of it..
i'l just kip it,deep inside.sorii sis..
& bby..sorri if iim not around.. ther..wen uu re having prob..
ii feel very2 bad ceyy

2009-02-25T05:24:00.000-08:00

heyyhoo ma lupp2..
todae..once again,tears flows down ma cheek..at one point of tyme,ii realie feel tat im bein stabbed at tha back,& get tis clear..guys..it does HURT alot..okeyy.. how ii wishh ii could be the strong gurl uu all noe..but ii guess ma emotional are getting overr mii..im starting to wonderr,if all tis while all ma efforts are now in tha drain.. hmm..

ii guess,a note fer maself.. b eurself..tts the onlie ting tt is good fer uu..so be it if tey hated the real uu..okii..hmm,

todae nutinkk much hapen..afta school proceed home.. met up wif bestie for a whhile..coz his booss called..afta tat went to TM..& guess huu i bumped into..random people.. ii bumped into Nadrah,KakRaudhah & Rehmat..uu should notice ma facial expression wen ii bumped into temm.. uhuu..imisstemLUHH..&& oops before ii frgtten..above is a sketch of danii..drew it a few daes back wen having a little misunderstndin. its ma first attempt of drawing human..so it doesn't look tt nice..heehh.. OKLUHHtillHEREE..iiMISHHmaiBABYGurfwen&maibestieDANII..

2009-02-24T23:09:00.000-08:00

Taylor Swift Lyrics

2009-02-24T04:54:00.000-08:00

heyyhhoo bloggyy.. nn to those people at ma blogg..

ii dunchnoe why,but it seems tat todae,ii totalie mish ma classmates.. ii mean maii last year class..
the tight bonding tat we had over tis 2 years..was there weneva ii fall..neva fails to ma daes wif their cwazie stuff.. ii do remerberr most of tha stuff we did togetha.. nn as fer ma lilBanySister, she was theree,neva even gave up on mii.. n neva fails to make ma daes..til now,she has stil been ther,even if our distances are far apart.. ii just mishh tem all.. realiee.. will ii still haff a fwenship bond like tis again..

i'm feelin quite down todae..wnderiin whyy..many tings hapnn todaee.fought wif damii,fer sum reason whichh ii cant avoid..nn many2 moree.. those tings tt hppen tdae mke mii realise, ii'm realie tired of pretendin as if ii dunch noe.. n yeahh.. im tirecd of everitinkk...

realie im tired..

nn to those out therr.. yeahh,im aint perfect.. but at the very least ii noe how to respectt.. tryin to b there wen uu nided sumone to tok to..

2009-02-21T19:44:00.000-08:00

heyyhoo,heyyhoo..

heehh..sorri ferr not been updatin..been quite busy lately wif ma assignmnts and stuff to ddo..

yeahh..

above were the pichas taken wiff ma family*..

love everyy eachh of temm..

& btw those pichas are not complete..a few more missing..

will update on the family,full people picha..soon okeyhh..

btw its saturdae todaee..

goin out soon..

will update uu guys ssoon owkeyy..

**hugss

2009-02-18T04:43:00.000-08:00

ii just feel scared..
& at tha same tyme looking ferward..
fer it..
sumbody coming bck tomorrow..
the dae..
the dae i've been waitink for..
fer the past few months..
the onlie ting tat i feared of is tat..
wat if i lose another bestie..
like ii lose the previous besties..
ii dun wish to b in the love game no more..
b assured,
fwensis the onlie statues we'll remain..
insya'allah..

2009-02-18T04:35:00.000-08:00

Just One of Those Things - Meg And Dia

Too bad you Knew me.
I wasn't ready.
I wasn't ready.
Did I say come and get me?
Too bad I held on...
when you tried to tell me,
this was wrong.
this was wrong.
I am no masterpiece
where innocence is
painted greenisn
't it strange to think
how you created all of me?
(Chorus)
Done by the hands of a broken artist
You painted black
where my naked heart is
now I finally know what wrong is
Carved like a stone
with hands still shaking
on display through a soul
still breakin
aren't you proud you're the one that made me?
You can't erase these,
lines you can't save me
You can't display me,
you know what dismay means
Can't even try toremem
ber what I knew
Before I became your model to claim no
((Bridge))
I grew tiredYou expired
You finished me
Now that I'm all that you planned
What do you think?
Chorus

(I won't ever let you fall, I'm no masterpiece at all)

2009-02-17T18:27:00.000-08:00

huhuhuhuhuhu..
sorri fer not been updatin much as mai computer is currently down..
soo ii hope eu guys understand..
i'll try to update it wen i had the tym..or ii can get access thru internet sumwher..

in aniwae,to dylla..
salam takziah ku hulurkan..atas kehilangan seorng yg disyanginya..
everitink's hapen fer a reason..
maeb se's betta of go..
coz its heart pain to see her sufferin.in tis werld..
go thru it wif a peace of mind..
eu neba alone okkii fwen..
coz we are all here weneva eu nid us okiie..

btw got to go..
till hee..nid to do ma research..
heehee..
(( im at ma klas lab now..if eu guys wnderin..

2009-02-16T05:38:00.000-08:00

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heyloo2.. to those readers out ther hus currently at ma blog..browsing thruu..
btw lets talk bout jus now.. skool was great.. yeahh.. we had a birthdae' dae todae.. fer the feb's baby..adawiyah,untat,joel adii & hadziq.. Sabo'ing people & guess wat,even our lecturers kna sabo..woohoo.. as fer mi..ii took tis chnce to sabo people..first person ii aim is those babies..heehh..funn tyme..hehee..waitink fer the pichas to b uploaded at the clas blog.. & i'l upload it here owteyy.. OoPPS..n not to fergett,we realie make a mess.. totalie.. heeh.. afta tt skul went on normlly.. had our lunchh & proceed fer the drawing class.. Mr Wan not feeling well todae,he look a bit pale.. cher,if uu're readink tis..get well soon aites... & as for the drawing lesson,ma group drew an apple,an orange..banana & a packet of drink.. on a plate.. difficult luhh sey,coz its our first attempt in drawing fruits.. heeh..

btw to sumone..
taking the same course as mine..
& are close to mii..
ii wanna sae tat im gnna mishh ya..
those memories we've shared..
even fer a monthh..
trust mii..
eu'll neva b fergtten..
ii just wish tat eu can still continue tis
together wif us..
coz without eu,it seems to b a different..

2009-02-15T07:34:00.000-08:00

snap,snap,snap.
terrorist in action..
presenting, Hari(red),hadziq(white) & adii(blue)..

2009-02-14T04:02:00.000-08:00

its Valentine dae todaee..but fer the first yearr.. iim celebrating it wif fwens instead of sumone special.. before i share wif euu out therr..

ii just wanna sae to mai bbyGf.. it feels diff tis yearr.. i mish those year in skool..wher everione celbratin fwenship week..instead of valentines dae.. uu,mii, n them.. those necklace tt we've brought..damn i've lost it..but yaniieBby,those fwenship ring wil olwaes b wif mii..till ma last breath..coz our fwenship wil b tweasured by mii.. & nthink can stop it,be it how farr we are seperated,just wanna let uu noe u're the one hu i tweasured most..as a fwen.. heeh(:

okiluhh,lets talk bout just now..

went to Joel's bthdae pit..(ma coursemate)..

its his sweet-17th bthdae..

and yeah,we enjoed ourself ther..

jokes around..n yeahh Sri..snap,snap,snap..

ghee,got to grab those 'snap' pichas from srii..

heeh..

and yeah.. we also had some pic bein snap ourself..

btw to joel..

JOEL..

mae eur wishes all cmes thruu.

n mae eu b hapie olwaes wif eur love ones..

& tanx fer the super-delicious food..

2009-02-13T21:59:00.000-08:00

listen up to this song..im loving it

2009-02-13T03:51:00.000-08:00

HuHUhU..ollahhoo..

ma 2nd individual presentation ist finally over..pheww..

tis tyme round it realiie scares mii off..

wat im tryin to sae the art piece.. must b beta ten the last tyme..

damn..stressed up taw..coz realiie2 nid to tink of the ideas..

btw tis tyme round,our presentation is about us creating alphabets..

tat represent ourself..

huushh..

realiie hard..but yeahh..

manage to comlete wif the help of ma wonderful coursemate n not to fergett..

wif the advise from sri toh.. & even wan..

thankx eyk kowng..

im a confused gurl..

dunnoe which lead to follow..

and im a gurl wif mystery

can be ur angel n the devil..

eu choose..

2009-01-31T03:15:00.000-08:00

remember that I’m vulnerable
And I can’t stand to be hurt
I want to be at the top of your list
But I don’t have to be first
Believe me when I tell you
That I love you with all my heart
That I’m here for you forever and always
Just like I was at the start...

huhuhuhu im..hnna start blogging again after beinkk MIA from updatin ma blog tis few daes..
was busy wif skool,finishing up ma assignment fer ma first presentation..tat has just pass..seriuzlyy..scaryy luhh xia!.. ma first presentation eva..at mai new skool..& in front of new peeps..
luckyy fer mii..coz at least ii noe hus mai audience.. hahaxx!..
but the onlie ting tat make mii scared n has butterfly in mai stomche..is bcoz one of the lecturer..not maii class one..oopss..ii fergtten the name..sorii.. he came to watch us present.. got some tips from hym as well as Ms Sri..can do muchh betta next tyme..(psss..ii dunnoe whyy i kip laughing during ma pwesentation..hehe)
other ten tat..skool went on normally..
oops..before ii fergett.. one of maii GF,hayatii..taq dtg skool tad.. get well soon bby,we all missh euu..Our clicks* the most:)**Get WelL soON OKeYY bBY..& c ya On MonDaE..hOpeFuLLie:)

Hmm..manyy tings happen..tis few daes..mostlyy negative ting..
haishh..all those stuff make mii wish fer time to go backk..ii realie missh december08..many reason in whyy i wanted december -8 to come backk..too may ting..one of it was..if onlie ii can ho back to tat month..i will hold n tweasure all mai besties which i haf lost..now..bcoz of a mistake tat i've made..last yearr..make tem go..ouh gawd..believe it or not,i still cryy n wish fer tem to come backk..coz if tat were to hapen,i swear i'll do nitinkk..nitink to make tem stae..

a lesson learnt fer maself..
once sumtink has hapen..
think twice..
bcoz eu'll neva noe..
it wil end up..
worst ten uu thought..

2009-01-30T04:52:00.000-08:00

dear diaryy..
many tings hapen..& i dunnoe how to even move on..
im stuck heree..realiie... i've lost one bro..n cmink soon another..bth were the one hum im close to..haishh..n i mae be losing one of ma dearest sis too.. ii wonder why life can seem to be so unfair.. tears kept cmink fown frm mai eyes..but one ting tat kept mii goin..is the support i get frm bby..n even fwom ma own family..not to mention..ma klasmate tooh..
ii dunch noe wat will hapen..if tey are not there..wil i do those stoopid stuff againn..
or even repeat ma mystakes again..damnn..
bby, eu r ma ectasyy..
wiithout euu..ii dunnoe how..
everitinkk seems to fade awaee..wenn i talk to uu..
listen to ur voice..
bby,will uu pwomise tt eu wil neva let go of ma hand..again..?

2009-01-22T06:21:00.000-08:00

aLoOOoO peeps out therr..hus at ma blogg..
btw sowiie fer the superr LATE..in uploading pichas tt was tken
on the 16th jan..
if im not mystaken..
sowwiiee maa lurppssS..FA0901b
btw to ma CourseMates,
we are like one big familie..
the bond we shared togetha...
ii hope it will stae like tiss fereva(:
kyna lurf eu all<3

btw sorri fer nt been blogging..
verrie the busy luhh..
nid to draw,draw and draw to improve..
trust mi wen i saee tat,
i've been slacking fer the past few daes..
reallie nid to wake up luh seyy!!!
before the pencil ferget mii..
even now,mai shading has drop..aiyo kyna!!..
see..!!..haishh..
kluhh til herre..
nid to do mit up sumbody..
till here maii lurf:)

2009-01-16T08:43:00.000-08:00

loveLOVElovee..

will update on the pichas tt was taken on 16th jan..

and yeahh,there were mny more pichas..

will b uploaded soon..

new fwens are beink luf by kyna luhh..

chyg kowng mny2..

btww lets tok a little sumtinkk bout tat daee..

everitink went on fine..

skool starts at 10..

met up wif dyllah( ther girl wearing blue)..at tha main gate..she look kind of pale..shes having the same sickness like i had few daes back

sorri dylla,coz the virus is at uu noww..

reallie2 sowiii..

then proceed for ADP class,

phew luckily its at 2nd level(:..

to make the story shortt..

We took mny2 pich todaee..

dunnoe why..

took pichas wif the rest of the gurl,

ten wif the guys too..

& yeahh to JOKER(ruzaini)

yeap2,i do agree,

it does feel like the last dae of skool..

bcoz everione click here,click there..

heheee..

but it will b betta if theres everione in the class..

ii guess the taking picha thingy strted

wen sistaDESIREE,one of our senior..

hu's gonna cntinue studying at us..

waaa,how i envy her luh seyy..

not everione cn b selected by US university at SF..

with just a nitec graduator..n beta stil wif onlie N-level cert..

can uu imgine??

she wanted to take a picha with the whole class..

and even the 2B class..

............

2009-01-14T07:36:00.000-08:00

bloggyy...
cann ii shout?!...
ii just nid to lett everitink outt..
haishhh...
his other gal boiffy now..
haisshhh...
note fer maself,
move on kyna, the wae he move onn..
his hapie now..so euu too must b hapie fer hyymm..
............
haishh..
too hymm,
yeahh,thnkQ dearr..
eu've won... uu manage to broke it to hundreds pieces againn..
afta eu the one hu tape it..
with eur love n careness..
but...
nevamind, i understand..
hapie everlastink acap...nn yeahh to mira too:)
ii wishh eu guys infiinity love..
eventhough onlie god know..

2009-01-13T09:15:00.000-08:00

many tings i've learnt for the past few daes..
nn yeahhh..
it all thnx to the motivational talk tat was held at ma campus
last weekk..
aa borink talk changed to an interesting talk..
hmmm..
& guess wat its o118 am in tha mwnink
mummie help mii!!!
im still stuck with the assignment...
id to hand in tmrw..
to Faisal&Faez Bestie, im sorii..i've let eu guys down..
i'll change owkee...?..
i'l try to b the gurl which eu guys noe last year..
i'll tryy..

2009-01-13T07:24:00.000-08:00

LOVE..LOVE..LOVE..
ollahoo to those readinkk ma blog..
nn sowii too fer not been updating..
was busy wif orientation week n now busy wif assignments...
aiyooyoo..
busyy luh seyy..

btw ITE lyfe was great..
seriusLyy..
made many2 new fwens there..
& yeahh mai first thot was tat skool got many2 paikia..
but the fact is..
those guys are superb the nyce..
made sum fwens wif the year 2 students..
nn yeahh
met up wif Is fwens..
i meant hys clasmate..hehe..
sum shocking face to see mii skooling ther..
hehee..
btw to Is, hapie everlstinkk kae wif herr..
& to ma klasmate... eu guys make mii go cwaziee..
& guess watt..
2 of ma msn fwens also is in the same campus as mii..
haha..
FITRI&ijal..
2nd yearr in tat campus oweadi..
& fitri..shutup okee eu got abike oweadi..
bluekk:P
vewi2 the coincidence..
haha..

btw not to ferget i mishh mai secondary skool baBIES..
winduu bngett seyy..
no matter wat,eu guys wil neba b frgetten okii..
nobody gonna replace eu guys..
coz eu guys are one in a million..
okiee..

ok luhh til here..
got to finish up ma assignment luhh..
till next tyme..
tatass

2009-01-11T07:37:00.000-08:00

lets start afreshh..
ferget bout all those miseryy..
& to bestie,indra..
woohoo macehh coz tlong kyna draw..
macehh many2...
& to Aidil,aka Bongki..
congrats on eur opening of eur new shop..

2009-01-08T06:37:00.000-08:00

borink!!!!
haishh..
no lesson til next week..
so tat means no SKOOLINK!!!
bowiink seyy..
but nevamind..
ii can use tis tyme to ease mai mind..
rytee??
need to freshen out my brain before lesson started..

& btw to mumie
sorri for the changes in ma attitude...
wil try to b ur goodgal back..
soon mumiee..
i'll tryy..

btw went to tampinesMall wif ma sis, Julie&Chiqa..
& not to ferget ma coursemate,dylah..
we went to popularr to buy stuff for ma ADP&drawing lesson..
dylah was a few minutes late..
while waiting for herr,
sumtink hapenn..
but dunwan to tell..bwek..
& btw to ma kakak2..
macehh for making mi laughh..
n forget bout all those problems for a while just now..
shayang kowng!!..

to maSiblingsLOVE,
ii mis yyouu guys luhh..
seriuzly...
ii just cnt wait fer the chalett..SOON!!!!
syg kowng many2 kae..
no mtter wat..
BLOODinBLOODout..SIBLINGS4LYFE!

--to ma bestie,faisal..
happie everlastink dear wif eur gegurl..
haha!!..
im stil ur besties & u wil b mine no mtter wat..
& tis goes for ma bbyYanie too..
& to indra bestie..n mai 2 bestiees tat ii mention above..
thnx kowng..
for all those cares,concern & love eu've guys showered mii all tis while..
uu guys were theree apart from mai siblings..
u guys meant a lot to mii.
n trust mii wen i sae tat i'l tweasure tis fwenship..
till infinity..

to hym..
ii dun wish to see or make eu stress up..
how ii wishh everitink wil b oke..
.......................
oh gawd, i just hated the situation we are in now..
hopin for the betta..in the upcming future...
insya'allh

2009-01-07T08:04:00.000-08:00

love,love,love..
wher is everione.. n why all this is hapeninkk??

cutting's love...
where are the hapie mmnts u guys had wif us the siblings..
uu guys became the role model for us the siblings by being there side by side all this while??
where are eu guys heading too now??
ican't eu guys just talk it all?? instead of leaving..
haisz..
no more SATUmeja&SATUair wif eu guys..
we the siblings just thot of asking eu guys to join our chalet..
but HAISH..
to kakakKu..
b strong baby, everitink hapens for a reason..
tey wil come agin,insya'allh..

to dadieLOVE..
the house does't feel tha same w.o eu dadie..
come back home quickly...
we need euu..
nn yesh dad,
perhaps eu haf neva ear tis..
but if eu're reading this..
ii just wanna sae..
DADIE,ii love euu..
nn im sorii if i've done many mistakes..
no matter small or big,
eu were still there giving mii support..
& to mumie.. b strong okae..
dadie wil b owrite..
rest assured tat okae..
nana pon syg mumiie...
many2...

** ya allah,
ku memohon bag lah diriku semangat untuk melalui semua ini ya allah..
sesungguhnya diriku ini hanya seorang hamba yang lemah..
ya allah, lindungiluh diri mereka yg ku sayangi..
dan yg ku hormati..
lindungiluh mereka dari semuanya...

& to siblingskuu..
imy ALL.!!!
eriuslyy..

2009-01-05T06:55:00.000-08:00

love..
its skool dae todaee!!!
haishhh..
maii first daee luhh..
walaoo..
butt nebamind..got supportt from mai siblings n the cuttings..
luckilyy..
if nott i dun even feel like goin to skool todaee..
bcoz of wat hapen yestrdae n wat will hapen laterr on..
AdeqRascal's court casee..& im not b able to attend..
haishh,not onlie mii but everione..
coz its our first dae of skool..
sowii adeqq...
but amin,its all over now..
glad tat everitink's fine..

btw met manny2 new faces todae..
onlie a few ii recognise during mai interview daee..
hahak!!
butt haishh..
it seems diff..totaliiee..
without mai bby..
without mai fwens hu used to b in tha same skool as mii..yaniee & nad
but..haishh
ii mnge to mke quite a few fwens therr
n yeahh those mats there..is likee..haha!! i noe u noe!..
haha..
n guess watt..
indra soo tha vewiee tha jahatt..
serious..he kol mii paikia ITE..(( i hope ii spell it ryte
haishh..but i noe hys just tryin to make mii laughh..
haha..
tanx dude...

2009-01-04T06:40:00.000-08:00

love.love.love....
too many blow at oncee..
but ii'l carry on wif mai life..
insya'allh

its all over between us...
its quite a big blow..but manage to overcome it..
ii guess..
love, tnx fer the truthh..
& yeshh im missing uu..
but.. nbamindd...
GUYS.. chwit tokerr??..hmmm..
btw indraa!!!..macehh shyg fer beink theree...
lendingg mii ur shoulderr & most of all..
thnks fer spendin tha nitee wiff mii..
thnx fren:)
& chiqaSIS... uu too haf been a great help...
syg kowng mny2..
btw bwk motor aek2 taw..
its midnite oreadi

another ting is tat...

ii just hope tat nione at mai blog now...
please do recite surah al-fatihah to mai bestiee
huu has just past awaee yesterdaee..
memories of our fwenship ...
will b kept inside mai mind..
** ya allah,pls bless hys soul & put hym in a place under the one uu love..amin..

2009-01-04T04:09:00.000-08:00

GOODbye2008 & HEYLOO 2009
love,love,love
many many lovee to evrione hum ii noe..

btw a short bthdae song for ma little sisterr..
HaRyatiii...
happie bthdae to chhuu..
happie bthdae to chhuu..
happie bthdae to HaRyatii..
happie bthdae to chhuu...
..................................................................

dearr bloggyy...
sorrii if ii havn't been updatin ma blog ferr quite sumtyme..
pwitty2 busy wif stuff...& problems neba fail to come one afta anotherr..
but ii guess now evritink shld bb okae rytee??..
......................................
..............................
to mai siblings ,
ii had lots of fun..serious on our dae out ystrdae..
shyng kowng..
eventhough ii was feeling down,
uu guys were there..
to mke mii smilee..
macehh=)..
to bbyYanie..
mishh uu uhh..
do joinn us taw the next tyme round..
..........................
& not to fergett heylooo the cuttiings!!
hahaa..

2009-01-01T05:49:00.000-08:00

2008-12-31T01:40:00.000-08:00

to mai LOVE,LOVE,LOVE
hapiie NEWyearr...!!!!
startt urr countdwn okeeyy noww..
heheehe..
-------------------------------------
to siblingsLove...
a lesson learnt for all of us...
hopefuliie afta tis incident,
our fwenship bond will b much more tighter..
more ttighter ten beforee..
----------------------------------------------
psst,mai mum saw bth of euu kena...
n now mumiie kip asking mii the reason bout tat..
im speechless..
all ii can sae is tat..
they caught the wrong person...

2008-12-29T07:37:00.000-08:00

mai love,love,loveee...

ii love hymm & mai siblingss..haha!!

dearr bloggy...

ii just dunnoe how to sae how muchh i tweasure tis fwenship..

every min & every sec.

thru ups & down we've gone thruu it..

and im sure if we continue to tighten tis fwenship bond,

by standing side by side..

we can go thruu mny kinds of obstacles in the cmink future...

** last but not least...

thanks BbyYaniee..

forr being there olwaes..

& hapie bthdaee indraa:))

2008-12-28T06:57:00.000-08:00

huhuhuhuuhu..

tomorrow is tha dae & guess watt??

the feeling...

it felt the same..like as if im about to sit for mai exam..

but tis is worse!! seyy..

sitting for exam is one ting,another ting is tat...

im sitting it at a brand new place..!!!

at ITE!!!

omg..mae gawd bless mii..

luckily mai 2 swit bro's folowink mii..

maeb sum others..iim not sure...

btww lets just sae tat im misshing sumone...

seriously..

ii hope tis gonna b mai last...

realie..

but ii maiself are not sure wats going thru in eur mind..

---psstt,imisshh mai lil baby gurl,shuhada..

ii mishh herr!!hahaxx...

mummie can i go back n stae at kak ida's house..??

2008-12-27T06:59:00.000-08:00

dear bloggyyLUP

sumhow its just a relieved tat everitink's back to normal..

for adeq-bradeq..

& to bbyCharlootte,glad to haf euu bckk luhh..

& to gurfwen mariam & gurfwen fyza..

hope tat we can all open up a new book starting todae...

wats gone let it go okeyy..

& lets just hope u're sincere & meant it wen eu join us..

-----------------------------------

to those who hated mai bro!!...

sumhow we dun gif a damn bout itt okeyy..

but to tink again,

its unfair & not doing us any good to fight..

when all of us are living in the same kampung..

ryte??..so no more hard feelings kae..

BTW todae,everitink was great..

no more SASUeYY..

HAHA..

met up wif mai two lovely bro..

they accompanied mii to collect mai spec..

& met up wif gurfwen Yati before ii went out wif ma family..

haha..

family,inoeEUnoe..

to WAN..

if eu're readin tis..

hapie blated bthdae..

sorri it slip thru ma mind..

& btw ii just hope we can open up a new book..

lets go back to step no1 wokaee..

lets b fwens backk..

hehexx
namer cayerr kyna,n eu're??..

haha!!

those momnt..

tagged mii up kae if eu came across mai blog..

& to bby charlotte,

the pichas haf beem uploaded to siblings' fwensta..

n to bby haryatii..

huhu..im just doing a part as a sister and a family members too:))

& not to forget mai bby yaniee..

tanx taw gals for tagging..

cyg kowng many2

to baby-love,kip it low okae..imy

psst--haf i told eu guys tat i 've to attend an interview at ite mcp??

ouh mai goshh..

scared sia.. but nevamind..mai siblings are folowinkk..huhu

2008-12-26T12:13:00.000-08:00

LOVE,LOVE,LOVE
im starting to change T,T..
& ii onlie realised it afta mai close buddy,faiz,shaukri,lina&shasha..
the peeps tat has olwaes been there for the past 2 years..
& ii guess wat tey sae maeb true..
bcoz for the past few daes...
ii noe i've been faking it all..
& ii'm sorrii!!...
i'll try to b maself again,hopefully..

btw ii got to go..
in a rush to mit mai bbyCharlotte & the rest of mai siblings..
she's otw & are reaching soon...
coz Dag is out..at hys granny house & will onlie b back a while laterr..
kecyk,adeqR & Yati are out too are on their wae here..
soo nid to go down oreadi..
ddada

2008-12-25T08:34:00.000-08:00

LOVE,LOVE,LOVE..
does real love still exist in this modern daes??
ii wonderrr..
bcause from mai own experience most of it was lust & not love..
...
ii still mising uu boi..
the thots of u still lingers thru mai mind..
but ii noe sooner or laterr,
its tyme for mii to let uu go totalie the wae uu let go of mii..

btww dearrBloggy,
lets talk about wat hapen todae teyyy...
woke upp early in tha mwnink..
coz wanna sae goodbye to mumiie,dadie & baby hus off to johore for
some reason..
afta tat continue ma clip till granny came to the house about 9am..
went too SporeExpo wif ma auntS,uncleS,granny& ma 2 siblings..
huhu..& guess watt??
UCU(mai youngest uncle),brought mii a digital camera..
been hoping to haf a digitalCamera on mai own..AT lastt!!
macehh pakcikKuu..cyg kamuu..
.............................
afta tat met up wif maii 2 kesayngan siblingss...
kcykk&adeqqR..
lepakSS wif tem for a while
& before ii forgtten,
welcome back BBYcharlotte...
mishing uu mny2 luhh..
can't wait to mitt mai siblings tomorrow..
mishinng tem many2

2008-12-24T09:01:00.000-08:00

dear BloggyLove,
im renewing mai blog & ii hope tis tyme round...
ii will spend a little much more time in blogging..
:p..
soo ii guess enuf of mii toking bout tat stuff..
tyme to bloggin!!..hehexx..

sisterly-love,
many ting has hapen for the past few daes & for some reason,
ii shall sae thanks for letting tis incident to happen,
bcoz from what i've gone thru the last few daes...
ii got to noe the real inside of herr..
ii mish those laughter & tears tt we shared togetha in the past.
eu were there in every ups & down of mai life..
ii will treasure every moment we shared togetha..
ii mish uu,ven at times im hating uu for wat eu've done..
nn ii wants eu to noe tat eu will olwaes b inside part of mai hart..
*being apart from her is worst than bweaking up
maiSIBLINGS,
thru difficulties & hapie moments eu were there beside mii...
uu've helped mii stand weneva ii fall..
nn siblings-love, tis past few daes has been the worst for us..
& im glad we are going through it togetha...
iim hopin & will neva stop prayng tat our frenship bond
will last infinity..
yanie-love,
kyna wanna sae many2 thanks for being there olwaes..
eu neva fails to lend mii eur shoulder weneva im down..
eu neva fails to lend mii eur ear to listen to all mai prob..
at tymes i tend to feel shy to euu..
coz eu've helped mii too muchh..
but mii??..
sumtymes ii were not there weneva eu nid sumone..
im sorry gurl i'm not a gud friend for eu..

to everioneIlove..
remeberr..
even if im far apart from eu,
rmbr i'll olwaes b near euu deep inside..
weneva eu cry,
if i can't make eu smile,i'll cry wif eu..
coz eur problem are mine..TOO..